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Little Thoughts, Big Feelings: Mental Illness & Motherhood

I thought for a long time that I would never have children. Not simply because I wouldn’t but because I shouldn’t. I had so many negative thoughts leading me to believe having children wasn’t the right path for me. Is it selfish to procreate when you are mentally ill? Most humans have an inherent desire […]

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Session Snippet: The Psychiatrist

“One thing I have learned is that the medications she prescribes only go so far; without the therapy provided my Community Counseling Solutions, I wouldn’t be where I am today.”

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Little Thoughts, Big Feelings: He would if he could…

A couple of weeks ago I said to my husband “You are not allowed to have feelings for the next month!!!” If he is tired, I’m twice as tired. If he is sore, I’m twice as sore. Every inch of my body is in pain and swollen and I’m barely getting enough sleep to survive. I’m […]

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Are you being deceived?

Cognitive Distortions II Are you being deceived? Imagine that you’ve just taken a pill that makes you feel as though your leg has just been severely broken. You have no physical injury and it’s perfectly safe to walk but you are in complete agony. Your goal is to overcome the pain and walk, or maybe even run. […]

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Meth Monsters

The focal point of many therapy sessions, dreams, journal entries and the source of many  insecurities, has been “the night my dad went bad“. I remember my mom always referring to it as such. I’ve analyzed the event over and over. I remember waking up to my dad moving from room to room frantically, reading […]

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The Long Road to Recovery: A Rocky Beginning

For a while now, I’ve contemplated doing a piece on my experience with Psychotherapy but it’s been difficult for me to find the words. There are many different therapeutic coping strategies and it’s important for each unique individual to do what works best for them. My favorite type of therapy, and the route that has been […]

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Little Thoughts. Big Feelings.

Stay Strong  I feel depression pulling at me from every angle. I’m tired and everything seems so dull and sad. I don’t want to do anything but wallow in self pity.  I’m trying so hard to keep everything up. I know there are reasons to be happy and I know I have larger goals to […]

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Bipolar Love— Meet Me Halfway

Thus far I’ve talked about my personal experiences with mental illness and addiction. It’s easy to get caught up in how it feels for me, but what about how it feels for my loved ones? My husband—  my mother— my friends? I have lost a lot of friends in the past because I tend to […]

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Blame Game, Cognitive Distortions, and Positive Psychology

In my previous blog I talked about my struggle with mental illness and addiction. I’ve dedicated more hours than I’d like to admit, to analyzing myself. I wanted – no, I needed – to know why I am the way I am. I needed to know why I can’t be happy or normal. Why do […]

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Summertime Mania: The Incident

I woke up happy and ready to face the day. Summer-time mania was always the best. I had talked to my psychiatrist a week or so prior about the fact that my meds hadn’t been fully effective and I was still experiencing relatively severe bouts of both hypo-mania and depression. She informed me there was […]

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The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me! Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton